Half way there!

whoa! living on a prayer......

Cannot believe that I'm 2o weeks today! 5 months- half way point! (that darn Bon Jovi song has been stuck in my head all day, and i don't know if i even have the words right........)

I'm HUGE

found out that, apparently, 2nd pregnancy you get all the aches and pains earlier- and STRONGER. whats that about? hows that fair? i actually went to the doctors office because i was having such bad pains. nothing like what i had with jessica. turns out its my ligaments stretching- which i do remember having with jessica, just not so intense. so yeah, found out that its pretty common to be more painful, and to start earlier. not fair- i'm chasing after a toddler! cannot imagine what that woman with the 18 kids is feeling.......

i've gained almost 10 pounds LESS than where i was at with jessica. but i also started 10 pounds lighter. so right now i'm the same weight as i was when i was 20 weeks preggo with jessica.

i've already talked about a lot of the differences of this pregnanyc

Another one that I've been noticing alot- especially since i'm back in prenatal yoga, and the whole pain scare thing.

i'm having that fear of not loving this baby as much as jessica. i know that i do, and that i will love them both the same. but i feel like i'm too focused on jessica to really concentrate on this pregnancy (not that there is really anything i can concentrate on, other than being healthy and taking care of myself), and when i had that pain i felt like i was a horrible mother because of that. does that make sense? i know that all mothers go through it, i've heard it. and i used to think they were ridiculous for thinking it, cause they know it wasn't true. but here i am, an expecting-mama, hoping that there is enough love to go around. i guess i don't feel like i really have the time to be excited, but of couse i still have the worry- and when i do worry i feel like i should be as devoted as i was with jessica! anyways. enough of that rambling

here are two sets of 5 month pictures. let me know which pictures you prefer. the black top were taken this mornign before going to get massages and lunch with my assistants. the white top were taken last night before a holiday party. and yes- i am aware that i'm HUGE. thank you ;) (check out how big i was when i was 20 weeks w/jessica here)