Wishing that insurance covered home births..............

Yeah- right now thats pretty much what I'm feeling. As I've said before, this pregnancy has been way different. One of the differences is how I don't feel like I've been thinking about it as much as I did with Jessica. Second mommy guilt.
On Wednesday I got a call from the dr's office saying they needed to do another ultra sound because the radiologist wasn't able to get a good pictures of the baby's spine. Nothing to worry about, most likely the baby's position. But this call came after over 24 hours of a funky stomach (do I worry about this? do I call the doctor? is this normal? is the baby getting enough food? etc.) and I was about to call the dr anyways, as well as feeling like I wasn't feeling the baby move enough. I had felt those really strong kick, in fact steve had actually felt the move move, about a week or so ago. But I hadn't felt those strong ones in a few days. I felt like the baby was not moving as much as Jessica had at this point in my pregnancy. Anyways, so on top of those two things, to get the call about needing another ultrasound (which did not happen with Jessica)- I just became crazy emotional psycho pregnant woman and broke down. We decided to go in to get a ultrasound to make sure everything was ok. I had to call Steve at work and, through hysterical sobs, asked him to come home so he could go with me. Had to make sure I had assistants around to help out w/the preschool- luckily my mom was there to help out as well.
We get to the dr's office, only had to wait a few minutes (thank goodness!). The first thing we do is weigh in, as always- but I had lost a pound. I had never been so scared to lose weight in my life! Granted it was only a pound in a week, so the nurse said it was nothing to worry about, but still. Then we got in, and I was measuring a week ahead (a good thing- maybe baby dos will come a little early? or baby dos is just HUGE), and we got out the ultrasound and saw baby dos partying it up in the uterus. We also noticed that my placenta is very thick, and its positioned in such a way that I probably can't feel all the kicks cause it cushions it. We also saw the spine, which looks good and strait, but we still need to do an "official" ultrasound for the radiologist to see. Anyways, such a relief! Steve couldn't stop teasing me about having a thick placenta ;) (which, by the way, is a good thing. Baby is nice and healthy. It could be more blood at the end, but nothing bad!)
So yeah, thats just one example of how this pregnancy has been so different! That was my crazy day. And since then, Baby Dos has been kicking constantly. Kinda like- oooh, thats what you wanted me to do mommy? HA!

Another way I've been tyring to get into pregnancy by watching some documentaries. And I want to let everyone knows about some of these! Really, even if you dont' want a natural birth, I think its important for every woman who has children, or who wants to have to have children, to watch them. Its kinda scary how uneducated our society is about birth. Actually its very scary.
The first I watched was Pregnant in America. It was the guys first documentary, so it won't blow you away by those standards, but the facts and information they have is important. Check it out!
The next one I watched was documentary by Ricki Lake, that came out after I had Jessica. The Business of Being Born. A much better documentary for sure. A lot of the same information, but still pretty amazing to watch.
The next one I want to check out is this. Orgasmis birth. That would be nice. I saw parts of it in the Bradley class that I'm dropping in on for a refresher. Looks interesting- not sure if I believe the hype, but might as well check it out!

Anywyas, so thats my speil. I know that there are a few lurkers out there who don't comment. So really really check out those videos, or learn a bit about Ina May. Pretty much an amazing woman. And crazy interesting. And thats my hippie natural childbirth advocate self.
Hope everyone is enjoying their weekend!!!