so i am officially in my second trimester!!!!!
its so exciting. such relief off my shoulders. and now we can tell everyone about baby!!!! i'm waiting to publish this blog till i've told everyone i can in person, but then its everyone else! fun fun stuff.
so far- everyone is so excited for us! makes me feel great : )
bought this on sunday:
ok, blogger isn't letting me post it. maybe i'll try later. anyways, the baby bassinet from pottery barn that is now sold out. apparently they aren't going to get anymore until december- at the earliest! so my friend courtney, who works at pottery barn, told me that i should probably buy it soon. so she hooked me up with her discount and i bought it! its sooooooooooooo cute. so freakin cute. i can't wait to put baby in there!
in other news- clothing. i got a bunch of free maternity clothes from someone from work. so generous. another weight lifted off my shoulders. of course right now i'm totally in the "inbetween phase" where my clothes don't really fit me (yeah, i don't have any tank tops for work that fit. that sucks in this ridiculously hot weather) yet maternity clothes are still too big- cause i'm not "showing" yet. talk about frustrating. so i just feel fat and blah, with no cute clothes to wear. and i'm hearing everywhere that it usually takes longer for the first pregnancy to start showing. ah!!!!! so who knows when my little baby belly will "pop" but i seriously can't wait! then everyone will know i'm pregnant and not just fat and gross ; p

so i am fast approaching my second trimester. i'm so relieved!!! and i am SO Excited to tell everyone about baby!!!!
this weekend i am going to see my friend jackie and her husband, and i get to tell her. (she lives in arizona, so i'm glad i get to see her and tell her in person! so much more fun that way) then saturday night we're having over our local friends for a dinner party, under the pretence of a 1981 bottle of red wine ; ). then i'll let steve tell them that we're having a baby (they're mostly his friends from highschool). i'm really excited to tell this group, mostly cause they're the people we see all the time and its hard makign up lies to why i'm not drinking!!! (they can only believe i'm dieting for so long, especially when i'm not losing weight).
then next week i'm going to tell the parents at my preschool who don't know. i'm excited and nervous, hoping no one freaks out about whats going to happen to the preschool. but mostly excited : )
i was stressing about having to basically buy an entire new wardrobe in maternity clothes, because i don't have money lying around. but then two fabulous things happened- i got another full time kid, and a friend (the owner of the fitness class i do with my preschool) offered me all her maternity clothes! she just just had a baby, and said she'd just give them to me, no need to sell. i'm SO excited! that will help a lot. i'll still get myself some stuff, but something right now makes me feel much better.
most of my clothes still fit. i actually haven' gained that much weight, but i've defiently gotten "softer." losing muscle. but its ok. all for baby ; ) i'm excited to finally start to grow, and to be able to see my tummy and now that the baby is growing and healhty. and that way other people will know i'm pregnant too, and not wonder why my skin is so horrible or i'm dressed so frumpy..........

we heard baby's heart beat today for the first time. i totally cried.
then we lost it, cause its so small it was hard for the dr. to find in first place.
in 2 months we'll get to see the baby! i'm so excited =)

kinda tripping out about life right now. being pregnant, having a baby growing inside of me thats going to be alive longer than i am. the life cycle, total trip. but also about where some of my friends are in their lives, and how different a place i am.
i am with where i am, its where i want to be. but its crazy how fast it has come to. it sometimes feels like it was just yesterday i was in highschool or college. or even jr. high. and now i'm preparing to be a mommy.
crazy

so, yesterday i notice that my belly is sticking out a bit. not just the layer of fat, cause i've had that before. but right below my belly, a little protrudition (did i just make that word up???). baby is starting to show! i'm only 10 weeks, so i'm not really supposed to be showing much. but still, exciting, right?
then this morning i open up my weekly email from ivillage.com with weekly updates on the changes my body and baby are going (very cool, btw)". and i read this

"At 10 weeks, many women begin to see their stomachs stick out. Generally, this is due to your bowels becoming distended rather than the growth of the baby."

so basically i have large bowels right now? um yeah- thats sexy. EW

told my parents over our vaca to iowa. it went so well-they're so excited!!!! the brag book was the perfect way to do it. my dad was just toodling around then leaned over my mom's shoulder for a closer look and screamed! he was so excited, cause he really had no idea. i had told my mom that i was stopping my bc pill and other medication, etc, so she knew it would be one day soon. but my dad had no idea. he was sooooooooooo happy. he jumped and screamed and cried, and then went and passed out on his blue chair. classic dad ; )
my brothers are also super stoked. already competing for who will be the "cool" uncle. poor baby, 3 uncles and no aunts!!!! baby will love it.
mom's getting ready to make the baby all sorts of cozy quilts. and they're already planning their "winter" in san diego

We told Steve's family the other night. Andrew came home for teh weekend- unexpected to us. Since it was going to be one of the only times we'd all be together as a family for a few months (we didn't know when Andrew would be down next) we decided to tell them then. Rather tell everyone together!
They were all excited
Karen already knew
Yeah, note to self- you need to cut back on drinking if you don't want people to expect you're pregnant everytime you don't drink!!!!
That, and Karen had a dream that I had a little girl, with the name begining with "J." Weird. We've already decided that if baby is a girl we'll name her Jessica Kathryn. Very weird. But they're all excited
Tomorrow we fly to Iowa and get to tell my family!!!!!!
I'm so excited
I made this "Grandma's Brag Book"


not too stoked on the cover, its not what i pictured, but whatever. The first page is this:


I seriously CANNOT WAIT to tell my parents. I'm so so so very excited!!!!!!!
They're going to be more excited that I am (ok, thats probably not possible, but they will be excited!)
Baby is coming into a family full of love, and baby is going to be S.P.O.I.L.E.D. : )